Steps to Progressing

 Today I finished a workbook on PTSD. It took me months to do as I was not trying to overwhelm myself with memories and such. The book is called "The PTSD workbook -third edition." the book walks you through what PTSD is, the symptoms, your feelings and so much more. I did it during my prayer time with God because I know I couldn't do this book alone. I discussed certain topics I came across with my counselor. I feel like it helped me to better categorize mentally things I just couldn't see to process. 

Walking through the book was like taking a step off the path I had worn in my mind. I think we all get stuck in our own negative experiences and/or trauma sometimes. I felt that if I was to conquer some areas in my life I would have to think outside that path and take a walk in the woods. Some sections were good and helped me see things I hadn't before and others brought up hard things and memories. this is why I walked through it with God and my counselor. 

finishing the book today gave me a huge sense of accomplishment. No one told me to start the book or to do any work outside of counseling, I did it al on my own. I had a lot of encouragement from friends, my pastor, doctors when I expressed the need to dig deeper. I think that also helped a lot. The road is hard, yes, but at the end you see things more clearly. think of it as if you stepped off the path and wonder the woods a while. you feel lost but you know your not then suddenly the trees open up and you see the most beautiful waterfall. It's kinda like that. All the hard work and pushing through leading you to something better and greater than you could imagine. 

I know some people are not ready to step into this level of healing, the abuse or traumatic event is too fresh in their minds and I would send them overboard. But if you're looking for healing sometimes you have to step off that path even though it seems scary. if your a christian like me you could always sit with God and do it. You can talk to God and express you anger, hurt, sadness, or whatever with him. He is a big God, I promise he can take it. David in the psalms did it all the time and God saw him as a man after his own heart. I encourage you to remember, it does get better, it does get easier. it might take some time but that's ok. I promise there is no rush or timeline that says "you have to be here" in order to succeed. Sometimes just making through the day is success. 

I'm proud of you for trying everyday to make it through that day! 

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